i need to put you down.
we're unfixable.yet i keep thinking what it would be like if i finally lose control and let that tiny bit of loneliness get to me.but it isn't fair to either of us for me to build something based on my own selfish wants.so forget it.there's nothing between us,and there will never be.but i care too much.and that's too much for you to know.there's too much that's wrong and there's too little that's right.there was nothing to begin with and there's nothing to let go of.
yet i can't bring myself to delete the msgs in my phone.
contradictory.
